Sunday, October 9, 2011

Christmas Season 2010

Well...Christmas 2010 is behind us.  I am sad about it too.  I get that way every year...the after the Holidays blues.  My tree is still up and so are the many decorations that are mostly eched with the cliche' "snow" quote on them...get it?  Yes, even though I kept my maiden name...I still get all tickled that my married name is Snow, and this time of year it just fits. 

This year we spent time with family and friends.  I hosted our family Christmas this year, and I must say it was so much fun.  Having my family in my home before and after Christmas with us eating all sorts of yummies made my home feel warm, and filled it with love.  There was an unspoken ambiance that was created and felt in my home because my family was here.  As an adult, that feeling is the best Christmas gift ever!  I watched my brothers and nieces and nephews play with Brayden.  I listened to them giggle.  I had really fun conversations with my neices.  We swapped fun Christmas gifts, and lauged really hard in the process.  We all ate until our belly's ached.  It was special.  It made our holidays feel really good even though we were all missing Mom, Scott, Tara and the boys. 

Brayden naturally entertained everyone as usual with his quirky little performances, and his story to Emily about how him and Daddy built a snowman together in the backyard!  Poor Em...she glanced outside to look for it...Brayden quickly told her it probably melted.  I giggled when Emily recapped his story to her since Daddy and Brayden havent built a snowman together at all in the backyard yet this winter!  Fibber. 

Ron and I put Brayden to bed, and came back downstairs to watch out for Santa Claus, and help put together a few things ;-)  We ate cookies, played Christmas music and hunkered down for assembly from 11:45 to 4am!  Yes we did!  It was fun though.  We giggled as every single time we heard a sound, we scrambled like spazzes trying to make a sad attempt at hiding wrapping paper and assembly tools ;-)

We talked about our lives together up to this point and giggled at some old funnies and stories that are now but mere memories for us.  We finally sneaked up to bed to snuggle with out peanut, and said sweet prayers of gratitude.  Then we prayed Brayden would sleep in for at least a small while in the morning. It didn't happen though. ;-(

In Heaven...

Just lately, Brayden has been asking questions like "Daddy, where is your Daddy and Mommy, where is your Daddy?"  Ron and I have both been telling him that our Daddy's passed away and that they are in heaven with Jesus, God, our guardian angels, and our other family in heaven.  He was usually quite content with that until a few weeks ago.  One morning brayden asked me again:  And our convo went like this:

Brayden: Mommy, where is your Daddy?

Me: Bray honey, my Daddy is in heaven!

Brayden: Where is Daddy's Daddy?

Me: He is in heaven with my Daddy!
Insert: Brayden putting his pouty and sad head down with the utmost look of hearbreak on his face as he starts to sob a little.

Me: Bray, whats the matter honey?  It's ok to be sad, but both of your Grandpas are watching over you ALL the time bubby!  Why are you so sad love?

Brayden:  "BECAUSE!!!!  I don't have a Daddy in heaven!" 

You should have seen my freaked out husbands face when I told him that story!!!

Ron thinks Brayden knows something he doesnt know, and statements like that make him paranoid.  He gets freaked out whenever he has a headache of some sort!  Me on the other hand thinks its adorable, and nothing more than a cute statement from that of a three year old.  Guess that's how we balance each other out so well huh?

Hope you are still giggling.  I am ;-)